Last of the month!

     Today is June 30th and this may be my last post for this month.  When this month started I decided I was going to try to write a post everyday concerning faith and/or sobriety.  I accomplished that although at times I felt I was stretching for material.

     I'm really learning how to write, and I'm sharing my experimentation's with you.  As you can tell, I write about things that are happening to me or around me daily.  I don't really touch on current events that much and that's on purpose.  This blog is really dedicated to showing the influence of Jesus Christ on my life.  I carefully choose my subjects and words with the intention of emphasizing how Jesus is working in me and how I recognize this and give praise for it.

     Anyways, I am open to any suggestions or inquiries.  If you have an idea for a subject you would like to see here or if you have any questions that you want my opinion on, feel free to post here by clicking on "comments", if you can, or you can e-mail me at littlecitynegro@yahoo.com or you can send me a message on Facebook.  I will respond to all inquiries in a timely manner.  I look forward to hearing from you.

Character builders/Relationship testers

      I recently had a revelation concerning relationships, mine in particular, while I was having a conversation with a friend.  We were talking about honesty and how it pertains to relationships and I commented that "as far as relationships are concerned, honesty and love are only required on my part". I went on to say that "I can't make my significant other be honest or love me and those qualities don't affect how I love that person".  In essence, I can express unconditional love when I don't hinder myself with other peoples traits, good or bad.  That may be a radical way to look at relationships but I tell you I haven't found any other way that doesn't include stress.

     Anyone that's been in a relationship for any amount of time knows that they can be stressful.  We all have wants and needs and we all carry around some kind of baggage.  Trying to get all the pieces of the puzzle together can be frustrating.  Lord knows I've pounded my head against the brick wall many times in frustration from the things people do.  Quite honestly, it's amazing I haven't killed myself or anybody else because of the stress of relationships.

     Anyways, I had a revelation that my significant other's lack of integrity and inability to tell the truth isn't a test of her character but rather it's a test of mine.  Ya, let that sink in for a minute.  What I'm going through with her is strengthening my character by testing my patience and tolerance and ability to forgive those that trespass against me.  Not only that, but when I look at the way she carries herself I see my own imperfections.  That's big.  I can't rightfully judge her or anybody else without first looking at myself.  Man, when you do that, it gives you a whole different perspective from which to go by.  Wooo, I'm on fire right now.  I mean, I can't easily chastise anyone when I first look at all the things that I've done over the years.

      It's by God's Grace that I am able to walk in The Anointing of The Holy Spirit and overcome these things that come against me.  If I had to deal with other peoples shortcomings and offenses against me in my natural self, I guarantee there would be a negative outcome.  There's no way I could tolerate anybody lying to my face and insulting my intelligence and disrespecting my manhood.  If I was operating in my own power, I would be fresh off of somebody's butt daily!  Thank you Father for showing me another way to live.  I love you!

Real Christians don't judge! We know better!

     Believe that!  Real Christian don't judge others.  It is not our place to do so.  We are to discern, which entails separating right from wrong.  We aren't to condemn anyone for anything.  We can offer our opinion, if it is asked for, but we aren't to force our opinions on anyone.

     As of late of I've been reading and hearing about a lot of people that are criticizing Christians for being intolerant of lifestyles that are outside of The Word of God.  I'm here to tell you that if you're a Christian and you are judging others for the things that they do or the way they live their lives, then you need to know that you will be judged with that same measure that you are judging.  And since we are all born into sin, there is nobody that is perfect.  That fact in itself should be enough to deter people from judging one another because there is no one that is sinless.  EVERYONE has some skeletons in their closet.  EVERYONE!!! 

     I don't judge anyone, specifically because God's Word tells us not to.  Lord knows I've committed more sin than a little bit.  Who am I to judge anyone for the things that they do?  I will tell you though, that I haven't met any of these "Christians" that are passing judgment on others.  I don't doubt that they are out there, I just haven't met any.  Sadly though, I haven't met that many Christians that are "on fire" with their faith and that walk in the Anointing of Jesus Christ and can profess their love for Jesus Christ with ease and confidence.  That's changing though and it starts with me.  I am so happy and so blessed.  I am growing and progressing in faith.  I can feel The Holy Spirit working on me and in me.  I can see The Anointing working in my life.  I am of sound mind and I walk in love and in power and it's all through Jesus Christ.  I am bold, and I have fire and I don't worry about anything because I believe The Word of Jesus Christ and I have seen it work and I know it's real.

     Wooo, I'm hot.  I love all of you.  Stay in The Word of God!

Power=The ability to get results

     I'm tellin' you, Creflo Dollar is a living example of walking in The Anointing!  This man is on fire and this mornings sermon was no different. I'm on fire because of his words.  He said, "God is looking for some people of faith that are willing to stay on His Word and know their authority so he can demonstrate to the world that "it came to pass"(1 kings 18:43).  He was saying that we need to rely on God's promises, operate by faith and not by sight, and take the blessings the Lord has provided for us, moving in Power and getting results.

     That's hot.  Creflo is like the greatest coach you've ever heard of and it's half-time and he's giving us the motivational speech of our lives to win this game.  I've got chills as a write this and I walk in strength and in power.  Everything I put my hand on will prosper, and it came to pass!  My family will prosper and multiply, and it came to pass!  I've been extremely blessed because I've begun to meet a lot of Christian brothers and sisters that are walking in power, and it came to pass!

     It's a wonderful feeling when you live your life according to the Word and then get confirmation that you're doing things right because you see other Christians with Power doing the same as you are.  Creflo has been touching on areas that I have already been through or are currently going through now and when I hear him give life to my experiences it confirms that I'm on the right path.  Thank you Father for sending your message through Creflo.  Continue to bless this man and his ministry! Amen.

Sobriety Tip #189

BE SELFLESS!

     Addiction of any sort is a selfish behavior.  Addictions override everything in your life to the point where you don't care about anything other than the addiction.  If you are going to be successful in breaking addiction you need to step outside of yourself and consider others first.  This process will allow you to focus on something other than yourself and your addiction.  You've got to break the chain of addiction and the way to take a link out of that chain is to do things for other people.  I tell you, you may not be able to put that pipe down or needle down or stop having multiple sex partners or drinking excessively at first, but if you start by thinking of other people and doing things for other people, it makes it easier to break the addiction!  You've got to give something in order to receive something!

Dearest Father,

Thank you Father for everything you’ve given me, and for everything you’ve done for me.  I cannot express in words how much I love you.  I want you to know how thankful I am for the life you’ve given me, for never leaving my side even when I left yours.  Thank you for getting my attention and stopping me from destroying my life.  Thank you for giving me your Word and guiding my path.  Thank you for giving me a beautiful family and protecting my family.  Thank you for covering me in your grace and giving my spirit peace and understanding.  Everyday I grow stronger in love and in faith and I am almost overwhelmed with happiness because I don’t see an end to your love.  I love you Father.  Thank you for your word, thank you for everything!

Love, your son

Gary Mason

Proverbs 18:21 Life and Death are in the power of the tongue

     You guys know I'm a big advocate of "think before you speak!"  I was considering changing my name to Gary "think before you speak" Mason.  I am often amazed and sometimes saddened by the things I hear people say.  Most of the time I don't understand the thoughtlessness behind the things people say.

     I learned through experience, a long time ago, that the things I say have an effect on myself and others.  I am careful about the things I say.  I know people are listening, even if they act like they aren't, so I give consideration to my words.  I've seen how my words have affected people after I've spoken them.  Sometimes I can see the wheels turning in peoples minds after they've heard something I've just said and sometimes I see people take actions after something I've said.  Both of those facts are miraculous and powerful, and because all of us wield that power, we need to be careful and considerate of the words we speak.

     I think part of the problem is people don't believe themselves to be powerful.  They don't realize that they can affect any situation in front of them or around them with a spoken word.  Here's an illustration of the power of words.  Do you ever recall a time when there was a person you really liked or admired that didn't know you existed and all you wished was they would look in your direction or "say" something to you?  Or, do you dread to be around someone because you know when you go around them they are going to "say" things that offend you?  Both of those situations give an idea of how powerful words can be.  From my own experience, I easily respond to people's words.  I think if a woman was sitting across the room and whispered in my direction, I could hear every word she was saying.  Why?  Because I am open to hearing peoples words and they have an effect on me.  I can tell my kids, all day, to clean up their room, quit fighting,  and be quiet, but they'll keep doing what they're doing.  But I can say, "let's go to McDonald's" and they hear every word I said.

     In close, think before you speak!  Say something uplifting when you talk!  Consider other people before letting loose of something ill-advised!  You have the power to make someones day or break it, choose life!

We respond to sin with quick repentance!

     If you’re experiencing a setback, if you’ve found yourself in sin, I tell you not to worry.  We were all born into sin.  It’s natural to us.  God knows all of our sins, even the ones we haven’t committed yet.  It’s our response to our sins that’s important.  As a Christian we are going to feel convicted after we commit a sin.  It doesn’t feel good, but it’s a good thing because it shows us that we are sorry for our wrong actions.  Don’t let Satan make you feel like you are a bad person and that you can no longer worship Jesus.  It’s the exact opposite.  It’s in these times that we cling to Jesus Christ and ask for His forgiveness and repent of the sin we committed, meaning we sincerely will try not to commit the sin again.  We stand firm in our faith and show others that even though we struggle and fall short and make mistakes, we move forward.  We can actually help others and show others the power of Jesus Christ by admitting our faults and shortcomings and then moving forward in love of Jesus Christ.  There's no other way to do this than through Jesus Christ.


     I know many people who struggle with sin, whether they admit it or not, and are not truly happy with life and do not have peace in life.  I believe part of it is because they don't know or haven't experienced the power of Jesus Christ.  When you know Jesus Christ and have truly experienced His Grace you'll be able to transcend ANYTHING that comes against you.  You'll be able to make a quick recovery from setbacks.  You will command a strength and a confidence you've never experienced before and once you have it, it never goes away!

We view trials and temptations as opportunities for growth.

     As Christians, this is how we treat trials and temptations when we operate in The Holy Spirit, as opportunities to grow.  When you're "up against it" going through drama, how are you going to handle it?  Are you going to panic, worry, burn with anger, bow down or worse?  Or are you going to pick yourself up, stand firm and carry yourself with dignity and honor that will transcend anything you're going through?

     I tell you, I go through drama like every one else.  I shared a little bit of what I go through in my marriage, with a classmate of mine.  After I told him some of the things my wife was doing, he was silent and looked a bit disturbed, maybe even sad.  I felt a little bad for sharing it with him because he seemed "affected" by what I said.  Now I tell you, I could easily be distraught, angry, livid, or any number of emotions, over some of the "relationship-ending" things my wife does, but I'm not.  It's not easy, but I rise above these things through my love for Jesus Christ.  The hurtful things my wife do, will not steal away my joy and happiness and peace that the Grace of God has given me.  I won't allow it.  I won't give in to the negative things of this world and be pulled down into the pit of misery that so many people find themselves in.  I was there before and I'm not going back.  Instead, I've gained patience, understanding, and the ability to forgive.  I will be judged according to my works so I know it is important to be able to forgive others for their trespasses against me.

    I move forward.  I truly love my wife and I love my friends, new and old, I love my Christian brothers and sisters and I love Jesus Christ.  Because of this, I can't be stopped.  I can't fail because God is with me and since God is with me, WHO can be against me?

Evil communication corrupts good character!

Messy Marv

     Man, this is a tough one.  It shouldn't be but it is.  I understand the concept above, and I agree with it, however executing it is something entirely different.

Ice Cube

     It's no secret that I have an affinity for West Coast gangster rap music.  I fell in love with the instrumentals of these songs back in the '80's.  I have never been fond of the lyrics which promote death but they are a part of the songs so I tried to rationalize the voice of the lyricist as an instrument that is part of the overall song.  Some artists have amazing voices and when they lay their lyrics on an instrumental track it is art.  Some examples of this would be Ice Cube, Too Short, E-40, Lil Ric, Celly Cel, Kurupt, Daz, Messy Marv.  The list is long on West Coast rappers with voices that "flow", unfortunately most of the lyrical content promotes death which poses a problem.

     I love Jesus Christ and  through His Grace I know right from wrong.  I know that I can't continue to listen to gangster rap and follow Jesus with ALL of my heart.  It's not possible.  I can't be in agreeance with The Holy Spirit and then turn around and listen to Messy Marv talk about selling drugs and killing people that come against him.  So, I've consciously cut down on my gangster music intake with the goal of being rid of it permanently.  I've considered starting a twelve-step program to get off of gangster music, seriously, because it's like an addiction to something that will eventually kill you.  On a side note, as I type this I'm listening to Nate Dogg "One more day".  The message in this song is basically a repentance of the things he(Nate) use to be into and if he could have "one more day" he would change his ways.  I must say that Nate has one of the most unique voices I have ever heard.  I could easily picture him singing some old negro spirituals.  His voice enhances any track it is laid upon and he was compensated specifically because of that.  Nearly every track he's added his voice to has went on to go gold or platinum.  I digress.

Nate Dogg

     See how my flesh works.  I will go to extreme means to justify the things that appeal to my flesh but the Bible specifically says in 1 Corinthians 15:33 "Be not deceived: evil communications corrupt good manners".  Man, that's hot.  You've got to be aware of what your listening to and viewing.  Don't be "lukewarm" when discerning what is right or wrong.  Make a conscious choice about what you want to promote, how you want to live.  It's your life, live it!

Sobriety Tip #2

     Let go of fear.  You cannot move forward in life if you are held hostage or in bondage of fear.  Any fear.  If you love and trust The Father and The Son Jesus Christ then you are not in fear of ANYTHING!  Man, that's big.  You can actually walk in grace and peace, boldly, without fear of anything.  When you don't have fear you don't worry.  When you don't worry you move forward.  When you move forward you live a full life.  Let go of fear.

Real Talk

     I tell you, I really enjoy conversing with people that have something to say.  It is few and far between, the conversations that I can recall that were intelligent and thoughtful.  This is why my circle is small and my words are chosen carefully.  I don't just entertain "everyone" and though I am compassionate, I don't really care to hear b.s.

     Tonight I had the pleasure and honor to hear a woman named Rebecca speak for about forty-five minutes about herself and some of the things she had gone through in life.  She was transparent, sincere, articulate and honest which was refreshing.  Her conversation reminded me of something I long for dearly and that is intelligent conversation.  I am grateful to have been in her presence and able to hear what she had to say.  I even thanked her for her transparency, sincerity, and honesty and told her that she had inspired me to share the experience with others which I'm doing now.

     Anyways, you may have read here, many times, that words are powerful and that thought should be given before speaking.  I encourage you be thoughtful of your words and use them to uplift others.  Be a blessing to somebody, it could be you!

Happy Father's Day

     Happy Father's Day to all you dad's out there including our Heavenly Father.  I'm at my parent's house right now celebrating with my dad and my son's.  My mom is cooking turkey and ham along with dressing, potato salad, mustard greens and deviled eggs.  Today is a good day.

     I went to church this morning and Pastor Brian Anderson had a good sermon today.  His sermon was about "life changing words Dads can say."  The list included, I love you, I believe in you, I'm praying for you, and I'm sorry, will you please forgive me?"  He went on to say that all of us have powerful memories of our fathers, either positive or negative or both.  I tell you my memories of my father are positive.  My dad had a rough upbringing, his father left when he was still a toddler and then his mother passed away when he was five.  He grew up in the 50's, early 60's, when the country was still in a transitional phase of equality for all but when it came to being a father he stepped up and never looked back.  We weren't rich by any means but my family didn't lack anything.  I remember growing up and having all of the trendy things kids had to have, at that time, like Atari 2600, Sony Walkman, Vaurnet glasses, 501 jeans, topsider shoes, Le Tigre shirts, Guess jackets, you name it, I had it.  I had skiing lessons from fourth grade through high school, swim lessons, I played baseball and basketball and I played the acoustic stand-up bass.  My dad provided all of this for my brother and I, often times sacrificing things for himself like new clothes or just things for himself.

     I could write many pages on my father but I'll end this by saying he's a great dad and I try to emulate him as much as possible.  If I'm lucky, I can be be an eighth of the man he is.
   

When is old too old?

     I was talking to a gentleman today who recently was arrested for attempted possession of a narcotic and forgery of a prescription.  He and I had both left TASC where we had to give urinary analysis.  He was concerned that he was going to fail because he had used crystal methamphetamine two days prior.  I sat and listened to his story and his reasoning and what he was planning on telling his probation officer and I tell you I've heard it before.  As a matter of fact, some of the things he was saying, were things I use to say when I was trying to rationalize my behavior.

     Anyways, the gentleman was asking me in a roundabout way if I thought he would be able to quit using considering he had only been using for two years.  I told him I knew he could because I had been able to do it and I had been using for over twenty three years.

     The amazing thing about this story is, the gentlemen is in his sixties.  He told me he just started using a couple of years ago.  I instantly thought about something Dave Chappelle said in one of his stand ups and that was, "once you get a certain age, if you haven't done drugs, you just missed out!"  I can't imagine or understand someone wanting to try some hardcore drugs in their senior years.  It just doesn't seem right, but to each his own.

     When I'm in my sixties the only drugs I want to be taking are an occasional aspirin.  That's it!

I don't get high anymore, but it's okay if you do, just not around me!

     So, I was standing at the bus stop last night, after my substance abuse class, with some people from the class, when one of them....wait for it....lights up a blunt(marijauna).  I mean, we just got out of a class that was about "how to maintain sobriety from drugs" and these two geniuses fire up some trees not even five minutes afterward.  Man, I slapped the blunt out of that dudes lips so hard that his head permanently points east.

     Seriously though, it was disrespectful and inconsiderate of them to do that.  They could've cared less about anyone other than themselves.  I tell you self-centeredness is at the root of most sin.  When you operate within yourself, when everything you do is for you first, when all you see is what's going on with you, then you cannot operate out of love for others.

     It's situations like these that threaten my sobriety.  I wasn't tempted in the slightest to get high but I don't appreciate people doing whatever they feel like around me.  To me, it's like them saying, "f*ck you and what you're going through, I'm going to do what I want to do no matter who's around!"  It's like a challenge or a dare, like they want to see what I'm going to do or if I'm going to do something.  I'm tellin' you, some people should be grateful I love Jesus Christ because that's the only thing keeping them from personal injury.

     I go through situations like that all the time.  Fortunately I'm stronger and focused on my program than I was before.  If it was a few months ago and it was beer they were passing around I might not have resisted.  If you're working a program and are confronted by drug use, just walk away, talk to Jesus and thank Him for all He's done.

P.S.....On a side note, I really don't care what you do with your life on your own time, but if you're in my presence THINK TWICE about the things you do or say because, though I appear calm and gentle, I don't have a problem correcting you by whatever means necessary!!!

What you put in is what you get back!

     The Monday before last, June 6th, was my last day of anger management.  I really liked those classes and I'll miss the time I spent with my counselor and classmates.  I tell you that it was enlightening and helpful.  Those classes were a requirement of my probation, in another city(Prescott), which expires on June 23rd.  So now I only go to a substance abuse class every other Tuesday and every Wednesday and then to 12 step meetings if I choose to.  I see my probation officer(Phoenix) once a month and go to court once a month until January 5th 2012.  Oh, I still drop u.a.'s(urinary analysis) almost everyday and on top of that, I'm a full-time student acquiring a Bachelor of Arts in Film and Video.  My schedule is still busy but it's getting a bit lighter.  Every day is one day closer to being done with the court system and then moving forward with my life.  I just have to be patient and consistent and focused.

     Right now I'm sitting in the lobby of my Wednesday's substance abuse meeting place.  I got here at 3:00 but my class doesn't start until 5:30.  I come early because I come straight from college which is on the other side of town.  It doesn't make sense to go all the way home and then turn around and get back on a bus and come here, so what I do is take care of some errands like stopping by Tasc and dropping a urinary analysis.  Even doing that, I still arrived here at 3:00 so I take advantage of the extra time by watching Andrew Wommack ministries on my laptop and studying scripture.  I tell you I am so relaxed and at peace that I'm ready for the rest of my evening which includes class and then seeing my wife and children that I haven't seen since 5:30 this morning and haven't spoke to since last night.  Sitting here listening to Andrew Wommack or Creflo Dollar or Ron Carpenter or Joyce Meyer gives strength to my spirit and keeps my mind on Jesus Christ.

     I don't have any stress, no worries, and that's specifically because I keep feeding myself The Word of Jesus Christ which gives life.  I keep to a bare minimum things that don't necessarily line up with The Word of Jesus Christ.  For example, I'll watch a little bit of ESPN so I can see what the Giants are doing.  I may watch National Geographic for awhile because I like the nature programs.  Sometimes I'll watch The New Adventures of Old Christine and How I Met Your Mother because both of those shows keep me laughing with their ridiculous situations.  I occasionally listen to some old school gangster rap because the music is addictive, however I must point out that I've been cutting back a lot to listening that because a lot of the lyrics speak death which doesn't coincide with my spirit.  The majority of my viewing and listening activities include watching different pastors teach The Word.  Because of that, my days are inspired and peaceful.

     Think about the things you watch and listen to on a daily basis and then analyze how your days are overall.  I guarantee, if you're putting positive things into your mind your days will be positive and productive.  If you're putting in a majority of negative, non-inspiring, immoral things into your mind then you can count on having strife in you life!

Recovery is a process

     Recovery is a process and like all processes it has a beginning and an end.  It is through this fact that I can claim to be "recovered" from twenty-three years of addiction.

     I was at an out-patient meeting recently and the topic was "how do you view yourself in recovery" and then there was a list of labels to describe what we thought of ourselves.  I looked at the list and didn't see anything that described how I viewed myself.  That list included, addict, addict in recovery, person in recovery, chemically challenged person, ex-user and a couple others that I can't recall.  None of those sound positive.  As I've stated in earlier posts, words are powerful and what you say about yourself is what you are.  I was amazed at how many people in the group called themselves "addict".  To me, that's saying that you are an addict and that you always will be one.  Same with "addict in recovery" and "person in recovery" though those signify a movement toward sobriety, they don't have a finality to them.  I choose to call myself "recovered".  When I said that, one gentleman said I was in denial, another said " we are always going to be addicts even if we don't use drugs anymore".  The consensus was, we'll always be in recovery and we can't ever forget that.  Man, that line of thinking is depressing and detrimental to a healthy lifestyle.

     I can claim I'm recovered because I have first, recovered my love for Jesus Christ.  Second, I have recovered my self-respect and dignity.  Third, I have recovered my passion for life that I once had before going into addiction.  All of that is significant.  It is important to realize the things you have accomplished while in recovery because it is these things that will help you be successful in recovery.

     I don't worry about relapsing because that would incorporate fear and how could I have fear if I truly believe in and trust The Lord, Jesus Christ?  Is relapse a possibility?  Of course it is, as is anything in this world is a possibility.  However, I refuse to make the possibility a reality by giving life to negative thinking by labeling myself as an "addict".  I label myself "recovered" and that's what I am.  I label myself "a good man" and that's what I am.

     Believe in yourself.  Speak good things about yourself and others.  Love one another and prosper from the fruit of your hands and your words!

It's those tough relationships that grow you up!

     I love hearing The Word of Jesus Christ and Pastor Ron Carpenter had some fire(as usual).  He was talking about relationships we find ourselves in and how The Father uses them to bring us to maturity.  I know this is true because I'm married to my opposite and I have gained a level of patience that's unprecedented.  I'm telling you, there's no way I could maintain a relationship with this woman if I didn't know Jesus Christ.  It would not be humanly possible to continue in marriage with her if I didn't depend on Jesus Christ's grace and mercy.  I mean, I just don't have that kind of patience and tolerance naturally.

     I have relationships with different people and I encounter different personalities daily and I tell you I don't operate in my "flesh" because I don't use discretion well in my flesh.  If it was up to me I would be slappin' the sweat off of people constantly.  That's not a mature attitude and that doesn't promote God's Kingdom in the slightest.

     As I write this, I'm going through some serious trials with my wife.  She is using deception, which has been an issue since we met.  I've been through the fire with her on this.  We've gone through adultery(both of us), lying, stealing, violent fighting, homelessness, addiction(me) and finally have come to Christ together.  However, we worship The Father differently and I don't believe my wife has repented or fully knows what repentance is.  When you repent you are sincerely asking for forgiveness and then stopping the sinful behavior for which you are asking forgiveness for.  So, if you're committing adultery, you ask The Father to forgive your sin and then you stop committing adultery.  You will need to pray constantly and consistently, read and or absorb The Word of Christ continously and trust Jesus.

     I love Jesus Christ.  I love my wife and I  have repented not only from my sins but also from my sinful nature.  Please don't get the idea that it's been an easy process because it hasn't.  My faith grows stronger everyday because I have been consistent in following The Word.  I still go through temptations and trials but now I depend on Jesus and that is everything.  It's the only way I am able to deal with situations like my wife still lying to me or me having sexual relationships with other women or using drugs.  All of those things appeal to my flesh but are detested by my spirit and since I follow Jesus Christ, I live in The Spirit of Jesus Christ and those fleshly temptations have no affect.

     What I'm getting at is, I can overcome ALL THINGS through Jesus Christ.  Amen!

Pleasant surprise

The incredible Tina Estes

     Last evening I operated a DSR-250 camera for Collins College at the George Washington Carver museum.  The event was a fundraiser for Cystic Fibrosis held by their local chapter.  I volunteered for this weeks ago but I wasn't sure I was going to make it as I utilize public transportation and it's not reliable.

unknown artist

     Anyways,  I'm glad I made it because it turned out to be an excellent event and the icing on the cake was, it was a Christian event.  All of the artist that performed were Christian including two R&B singers and two rappers and a poet.  They all were professionally talented but I was captivated by one in particular.  Her name is Tina Estes and when I first saw her rehearsing I instantly thought of Alicia Keyes.  She resembles her, beautiful, light complexion, long lustrous hair and plays piano, among other instruments, and has a silky, gentle yet powerful voice.  I captured her on my own personal camera so I would always have a performance by her.

unknown poet(the brotha had fire)

     She was amazing and the evening overall was amazing.  There were quite a few "Halle Berry" type women in attendance which made it that much better.  I can't say enough about being in a room full of successful, beautiful black women.  I would have kicked myself in the butt if I would've missed this event considering every thing that was going on there. 

     Most important was the fact that I gained valuable experience behind the camera and was able to work with a crew.  That was the purpose of my volunteering and God blessed the work of my hands.  Thank you Father!

Feelin' myself!

     Damn, I feel good today.  Thank you Jesus.  Life is good.  There's nothing like a good song to jumpstart your day and mine is "Ain't nothin' but a party" by Zapp and Roger.www.youtube.com/watch?v=SQ63xVfLMZ0.  I've already played it at least twenty times back to back.  I'm sweatin' to the oldies baby.

     Anyways, y'all have a good day out there, and if you can find me let's party tonight.  It's on me.  Hit me up.

I'm down for my sobriety!

     Up at 5:30am on my day off.  That's what I call "sleeping in".  Anyways, I got up and pondered my schedule for the day.  Nothing to do until later in the day so I decided to go to an AA meeting.  That's pretty significant considering I don't particularly care for those types of meetings.  As I was walking to the meeting I was thinking about my progress in my sobriety.  I've come quite a long way and going to an organization that I don't really like, without being forced to do so, is a testament to that.

     The format for this meeting was an "open meeting" meaning anyone could share their perspective on the chosen subject.  The subject was "true motives" and everyone that shared had some interesting insights.  The biggest revelation I gained was that I actually liked this type of meeting.  Most meetings I attend are "speaker meetings" where one person shares their story.  There's nothing wrong with speaker meetings, if that's your thing, but for me I have a short attention span if the speaker is not charismatic or sincere.  Some people have been telling their story for so long, in the same way, that they bore even themselves and that's when the message gets lost.

     Keep it Hot! is my motto.  I've got so much fire I've got to keep it under wraps for fear of burning down the house.  Real Talk.  I'm down for my sobriety.  I'm down for helping my brothers and sisters in this battle for life, but I'm really down for my love for Jesus Christ. 

     STEP UP AND GET SOME IF YOU AIN'T AFRAID TO LIVE!

Sobriety Tip #1

     Love Yourself!  It all starts with you.  Love yourself and respect yourself and you will not do things that are harmful to you.  When you love and respect yourself you won't want to use drugs that destroy you.  You will appreciate the life that was given to you and you will walk with honor and respect and reciprocate that toward others.  It all starts with you!

In The Addict Issue #7 vol. 2 Relapse justification

     I'm writing this issue in response to some questions I encountered recently at an "after-care" group counseling meeting I attended.  One of the questions was, "What emotions do you use to justify a relapse?"  As the question went around the room, some people answered with, "anger", or "resentment", or "boredom", or "loneliness".  I know, some of those aren't emotions, but those were some of the answers given.  What can you expect from a group of people who've spent many years burning brain cells with illegal substances?

     Anyways, when it came to my turn I responded by pointing out that we, as a group, are in "after-care", which signifies we have come quite a distance in our recovery and we are nearing the end of our time in the program.  That being said, we don't have the luxury of justifying a relapse for any reason!  If you're looking to justify a relapse at this point then you need to take a look at your program and determine if you really want to be sober or if you're just wasting time in this program!

     I'm upset and disappointed with the curriculum we've been given in this program and with the instructor.  A majority of the material we're given is negative and destructive.  If you are the type of person that can't interpret information and then have to rely on what others tell you, without research, then this counsel can possibly program you into continued drug-use by reinforcing negative ideals such as "continual recovery".  Our instructor is also a factor in this.  From the time I first entered his group he has displayed a lackadaisical attitude toward his position and has shown a lack of professionalism in performance.  This is detrimental to the group he leads as we look to him for guidance, instruction and leadership in getting through our battles with addiction.

     Fortunately for me, I utilize more programs and classes than just this one.  I get a wide variety of information and input from other sources.  I would advise others to do the same if you're looking to have a successful recovery from addiction.

Hot Scripture!!! pt. 2

     All of Ephesians is Hot.  Chapter 4 verse 31 says, "Get rid of all bitterness, rage, anger, harsh words, and slander, as well as all types of malicious behavior.  Instead, be kind to each other, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, just as God through Christ has forgiven you!"

    I love Jesus Christ.  I don't have any problems with The Word of Jesus Christ.  To me, The Scriptures are nothing but a guide to living a happy and prosperous life the way we were created to.  The things God is asking us to do are things to allow us to live good lives.  That's it.

     Don't complicate your life with a bunch of b.s.  Do what you know is right.  Love one another.  Help everyone you can.  Be a blessing to others.  Life is good!

Back to school!

     Today is my first day back to school after having a week off between terms.  Yesterday I was like a little kid waiting to go to Disney Land, I got my backpack together, ironed my clothes and shaved in preparation for school.  I couldn't wait for the morning to come so I could head back school.  I really enjoy my time in class.  It's really exciting to be in an environment where  a lot of people are chasing their dreams and ambitions.  I haven't felt this way in a long time and it feels good.

     Anyways, when I arrived on campus what did I see?  My name on the High Honor list.  Last term my GPA was 3.70 and my cumulative GPA is 3.49. Not too bad for the old man considering I haven't been in school since May '87.  Even then I wasn't at a 3.0, I barely scraped through as academics weren't a priority during my high school years but that's another story.

     Today I have Information Literacy and Field Production II.  I also have Digital Editing this term and I really can't wait to get started because these classes in particular are going to enable me to begin working on my own projects.  With that said, I'm off to class!

Garyology 101 pt. 2

     I write this one for the benefit of my inner circle and those who may be around me often.  I recently heard someone say that I don't believe in myself enough or I don't have enough confidence in myself or the things that I have a hand in.  I understand their point of view and most times I adamantly exclaim that, "I know myself pretty well and if I seem surprised by my performance, it's not an act".

     What people don't understand or know about me is that at one time I was extremely egotistical.  My ego was bigger than Texas.  I was on top of Hip Hop in Reno and was the BEST DJ in Reno and quite possibly the West Coast.  I thought very highly of myself and basically no one could tell me $#!+.  I was that good.  Through my self-centeredness and inflated ego, I lost sight of who I was and, long story short, I lost everything, family, friends, fame, passion.

     I'll be damned if that happens again.  I would rather sit in the shadows and wait for my opportunity to shine than to put myself "out there" right now and risk losing control of myself.

     For those of you out there that are just getting to know Mr. Mason, believe this, I will continue to succeed!  I will excel in my chosen field or in any field I go into.  I will maintain humility(as unpopular as that may be) and be a person of good moral character to all.  I will put others before myself and together we shall all prosper!

My day in court (again!)

Commissioner Morrow

     Today is the 3rd of June and it's already time for me to make my monthly appearance in court.  I swear I just went to court the other day.  My how time flies when jail is hanging over your head.

     Anyways, I didn't receive any jail sanctions or community service sanctions this month.  That's because I was a good boy and didn't do anything to violate my probation, like drink a beer.  I also think it's because this is the last time I'll be appearing before Commissioner Morrow as he is moving on to other endeavors.  For some reason, he's been lenient on me considering I'm nearly two thousand dollars behind in court fees.  That in itself could be considered a probation violation punishable by several days in jail, per month, until it's caught up.

     So, I found out that my probation officially expires on January 5th, 2012.  That's seven more appearances in front of the judge, approximately sixty more u.a.'s at TASC, possibly eighteen days in jail sanctions, and fourteen aftercare meetings.  I'm nearly done with probation.  I can't wait so I can move onto the next phase of my life!

I love Kung Fuuuuuuuu!

     Ok, I went to a theater and saw Kung Fu Panda 2 with my family.  First, I haven't been to a theater since Training Day came out.  That day, I saw Training Day and then I snuck in and saw The One.  The One was so bad I asked for my money back on a movie I didn't pay to see.

     Anyways, Kung Fu Panda 2 was good.  It was more dramatic than the first but that didn't hinder the movie.  I won't go as far as to say it was better than the first but it is definitely worthy of being the sequel.  It easily could stand on it's own without the first one.  Dreamworks didn't disappoint so if you have children, or even if you don't, it's worth a look!

The work of MY HANDS........

     The work of MY HANDS is meant to...wait for it..... bless other people!  I really need to readjust my thought process and realize that I don't need to strive to make sure I have everything I need, rather I need to strive to be a blessing to others.  I need to be prosperous with overflowing abundance so I can be a blessing to others.

     I boldly pray in the name of Jesus Christ and in The Blood of Jesus Christ that He give The Anointing to all that I set my hands to and that He guide me to His purpose for my life.

   

Sobriety Tip # 97

     Be transparent!  It is very hard to keep any secret when you're transparent especially any addiction you may have.  Being transparent also strengthens your integrity because you are less likely to lie about anything.  This is an imperative quality to have if you are to succeed in anything!